This is from my prayer this morning! Best holy hour ever!
"And God said, 'Let there be light.' It's radiance will help us to see what is unfolding." (Captivating)
Things that are kept in the dark remain in the dark, but things on which light is shed become visible. We can see their color, their form, their purpose, their value. And only here can we see if they keep us in chains or set us free. The truth is, even those things which remain in the dark, will have light shed on them sooner or later because Christ is light. I think of the image from the movie Anastasia when she breaks into the old palace to look for her dog and she sees that urn, an old urn covered in dust. Then she wipes the dust away to find that underneath is a painted urn with dancing bears in purple and blue and all of a sudden when she says, "It's like a memory from a dream" her dream literally comes down to illuminate her reality and she sees the entire ballroom full of beautiful things and people wearing beautiful gowns and she sees her family who she cannot remember at all.
Christ is creating something in me. He is creating a greater capacity to love. He is making something new! He is creating me into the woman I want to be, bold, courageous, and vulnerable. He is creating that woman who is unafraid, who can love perfectly without fear.
Michealangelo's Creation in the sistine chapel is significant to me. A woman must be so lost in the heart of God that a man must go there to find her. I am such a MYSTERY that I have changed so significantly over the years. No one knows me, no one knows my heart except God. God is constantly creating something new in me, therefore, a man can never stop pursuing a woman. He is constantly pursuing her, seeking her, rediscovering who she is because he knows that even in one minute God has already created something new in her that he (the man) has never seen before.
Every woman needs to be pursued by a man, no matter who that man is. Her father needs to pursue her, her brothers, her friends, her boyfriends, her husband. What good is the beauty and mystery of a woman if it is not being discovered by someone, if it is not being delighted in? Of course God always plays this role, but it's not just his role to play.
I understand now what it means as a woman to be a mystery. I used to think that discovering my mystery was something that only the man I will marry will do, until I realized that to love a woman means to discover her mystery, to constantly rediscover who she is at every moment because like a woman's physical body changes so often, so does her spirit, her heart, her soul. Every man in my life is called to pursue me as a woman and discover my mystery and it can happen in the simplest ways. My friends and the men in my family pursue me, it is not only for one man to do and thank God! Because I would feel incredibly unloved if only one man in this world showed his love for me!
On the flip side of all of this is the ugly part. If a man stops pursuing a woman, if he stops finding out about her, if he stops discovering her and getting to know her, it's as good as saying, "I don't love you." It basically means he is ignoring her mystery, which means, to him, it doesn't exist. He might as well say, "You are not mysterious, you are not beautiful and there is no reason why I should discover you at all." That is called rejection and it is every woman's worst nightmare.
So the questions that I leave you with are, How are you pursuing the women in your life? Do you really know them? Are you still getting to know them? When they leave your presence, do they walk away feeling like they have been pursued by you and that they are important to you? Or do they feel used?
As a woman, I have had many conversations with men, some I walked away from feeling pursued, uplifted, and literally thinking "I am so loved by that man!" Others, I have walked away feeling completely used and dishonored.
I sincerely hope that this little glimpse of femininity helps you to truly love the women in your life!
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